Why Don't I Do What I'm Told?

For all of my life I have been a contrarian. My aunt tells me stories of me as a two-year-old and my dad trying to sway what I did and I was apparently having nothing to do with it. In 38 years nothing has changed.I am an avid reader, but every time I join a book club I am an immense failure at it. For most people book clubs are hard because they can never find the time to finish the book. That's not my problem. I can easily read 10 novels in a month. My problem is that as soon as I am SUPPOSED to read something, it is the LAST thing I want to read. I will read everything BUT that book. This also made life in college difficult. Whenever I had assigned reading it was a trial. I finally managed to get school work done by making a deal with myself. If I read 50 pages in the assigned book then I could read 50 pages in 'my' book. And the irony is that my book was Thomas Hardy or Jane Austen. It wasn't like I was clammering for Danielle Steele. What a GEEK! I have the same problem with work. I have no problem doing work, I just have trouble doing PAID work (aka the work I am SUPPOSED to be doing). I can spend HOURS on stuff that I am either doing for free for people or that I am doing for myself. If I have 5 things to do, then I will inevitably reach for the thing on the list that is due last. You're probably wondering how I ever get anything done. Me too. But luckily I have a mechanism that kicks in right before a project is due (it's called panic) and then I am all business until I meet the deadline. And then I am exhausted. I wouldn't recommend this as a modus operandi.